This has been a strange and  depressing week. I have a viral chest infection, i’m usually a very healthy person, i throw off infections in 2 days, i don’t do ill…. but i’ve spent 5 days lying on the sofa in my jamas, coughing, shivering, sleeping and feeling like a zombie.

that’s not the bad part, the bad part is that the love of my life has terminal cancer, he’s ok at the minute, but any  infection could cause a relapse.  which means i am in purdah …

we sleep in separate rooms, we spend our days in separate rooms… he tends me from a distance, he cooks me my meals, but hands them to me from the door, we blow kisses, we talk online… he is his usual loving, attentive wonderful self

BUT

we are a tactile couple. If we are on the sofa, we are cuddled up together, if we walk down the street, we hold hands, if we are out and about, we always are within touching distance, we kiss every time we pass each other in the corridor, or as we cook,  we kiss and hug constantly, we spoon in bed every night….. and i miss all that so much….

I will be better soon, and we will get back to normal, but this is just a foretaste of the inevitable and that hurts so much.

but for now, looking forward to a big hug soon 🙂